Wednesday, November 9, 2016

a change is gonna come, said the signal to the noise

It's been a rough day. Last night at around 9 I did the math, figured out the outcome, shook my head, checked Facebook to see what the reactions were, and went to bed (and then kept checking Utah election results for a while, just to see). It wasn't what I wanted, but I knew everything would be okay. Slept just fine, even.

Today I got to work and started reading more reactions. Some were hopeful, some were even happy, but a lot were really, really scared. (Mainly people the president-elect has targeted: blacks, Latinx, Muslims. LGBT I think?) I started absorbing their fear and began crying.

Yep, at work. It's fine. I went to the file room to catch up on some filing and hopefully calm down.

Caught up on some filing but then started thinking about how people (men) are going to think sexual assault is okay because the president-elect made it seem that way. I am afraid of that. That did not calm me down. Kinda the opposite, actually.

I eventually recovered but I have this awesome feature I like to call the "amazing human faucet" -- sometimes when I start crying, I don't stop. It just keeps going for a few hours. At my desk I could hear the various celebrations of coworkers who were legitimately happy about the outcome of the election and I just felt for those who are unhappy, whose perspective the people at work don't see or don't care about.*

Anyway, if people look like they've been crying, don't ask if they're okay. It might make them start crying again even as they say "Yep everything is fine"

And I do believe that everything will be fine. I, and all others disappointed by this outcome, are allowed to grieve. Allow us this space so that we can come together full-heartedly to believe in America, and to work righteous endeavors.




*Hey, just so you know, it's okay to disagree that certain policies are good/bad for America. But don't dismiss people's fears about how something will affect their life. Their feelings are valid (because they're their feelings! They're real things), and so are yours. If we work from that understanding, we can actually get somewhere.

Thursday, June 16, 2016

mother says years ago

It's my mother's birthday! To celebrate I came up with 50 (an arbitrary number, obviously) fun facts/cool things/interesting opinions about her.


50 Tidbits About My Mom (Because She's Cool)

1. Today is a special birthday for her because it's an awesome palindrome: 61616.
2. She has green eyes and dark hair. Straight-up Harry Potter combination.
2. She used to teach junior high. Not everyone can do that but my mom did. She taught Math and English.
3. She let me use all her old pre-algebra fun things that she had from when she was a teacher. Pre-Algebra with Pizzazz. I learned so much.
4. My mom makes it a point to not have favorites. No favorite children, no favorite food, no favorite book, no favorite color. Makes life easy, except when you're trying to plan a favorite dinner.
5. She is the designated driver in our family.
6. She drove from Logan to Salt Lake every business day for a month so I could have radiation.
7. And also whenever I stayed at the hospital she stayed with me. It was great not to be alone (and also I got her to laugh at Cake Wrecks one time, and she tries not to laugh because it shows favor).
8. She is good at reading picture books. I am certain she has many memorized (not that it's hard to memorize "Chicka Chicka Boom Boom" but she's got it). It is this and other things that indicate...
9. She is a fun grandma.
10. My mom tried to make me learn how to clean. It didn't work but I appreciate her continued effort.
11. She did make me practice the piano (and violin, when that was a thing). That worked at least.
12. She has always been good at taking pictures! My childhood is pretty well documented (and also my life now; most of the pictures of me these days are still ones she takes).
13. My mom is physically active and very strong.
14. The only time in my life I've ever exercised regularly is when she made me come to aerobics with her for a few months.
15. She maintains the yard and the garden beautifully. It is a beautiful place outside my house.
16. Part of maintaining the garden is allllll the harvesting and allllll the preserving. So much canning in the summer! She does it!
17. She's my mom but she lets me be a grownup.
18. She is a fast typer.
19. She is an excellent seamstress! Growing up we all had matching clothes and I still have many clothes made by her in my closet (that i wear regularly).
20. We had so many cool birthday parties growing up. I had a rainbow party once. She tried so hard to socialize me, bless her heart.
21. She is a good decorator of our house.
22. She played the clarinet. She does play the piano currently but I don't know if i've ever actually heard her play the clarinet, but I know she was decent at it.
23. She is involved in the community. She was a room mother in elementary school. She was also PTA President which is a big deal.
24. Also she's politically involved which is convenient because it means I don't have to and I always know how to vote.
25. She is reasonably accomplished at doing hair. I don't think she'd want to do it for prom or anything but I always looked neat as I went to elementary school. A good braider.
26. She goes along with my dad on hikes and stuff, which is more than I'm willing to do.
27. She is great at planning vacations.
28. She is also great at hosting large gatherings. Hostessing doesn't come the most naturally to her but she does such a nice job.
29. She lets me take food from their house every time I come visit.
30. She likes flossing. When I was trying to start flossing part of my motivation was her telling me how much she likes it. I probably wouldn't ever have become a regular flosser without her example.
31. She's also a good example of other things, like fulfilling her callings and reading her scriptures.
32. Also she attends the temple weekly. I used to go with her and now I don't, but I also try to go weekly.
33. She takes me shopping for clothes and otherwise I probably would not have clothes because shopping is the worst. Alternately she also takes my sisters shopping and then I can take their clothes. Either way it's a win for me.
34. She is an involved missionary mom. Always making sure to be around on Mondays and sending lots of good packages.
35. She knew about Wicked before it was cool. Because we liked to listen to Showtune Saturday night, which means that we grew up cultured!
36. She taught me how to write left-handedly.
37. She is good at the finances and knowing when we can make big purchases without my dad knowing.
38. She is good at pushing us out of the door to go to college (this brought to you by the fact that my brother is moving to Provo today [surprise] and they are packing him up. she's packed a lot of us up)
39. She gets along with her family.
40. She gets along with dad's family.
41. She doodles while she's on the phone and I don't mind at all that that habit has passed down to me.
42. She tried to get me to own a smart phone for like 3 years before I finally did. She cares that I have a functional phone. Not that I ever call her.
43. She calls me on the phone to make sure I'm okay.
44. We recommend books to each other. She is pretty good at it.
45. She's also willing to read the fanfiction I recommend to her without overt judgment of my tastes.
46. She went through this phase where she'd make CDs for me to listen to in college. Just a weird mishmash of whatever she'd been buying lately. I still have them.
47. She reads my blog. She watched my vlog. She is generally supportive of our creative endeavors, which is great.
48. We grew up never having tried fish, asparagus, broccoli, avocados, or any of the other foods my mom doesn't like.
49. Which reminds me, have I mentioned this yet? She is a great cook! I could probably list 50 more things that she cooks that we like to eat in our family, but suffice to say that it is great to eat at home!
50. Popular opinion: she is the best mom ever.





Someone else give me a picture to put on this post.

Monday, May 2, 2016

followers of my faith [Mormon Monday 95]


I like this quote. Happy Monday.


“The Spirit of God speaking to the spirit of man has power to impart truth with greater effect and understanding than the truth can be imparted by personal contact even with heavenly beings. Through the Holy Ghost the truth is woven into the very fibre and sinews of the body so that it cannot be forgotten” (Teachings of Presidents of the Church: Joseph Fielding Smith [2013], 183–84).

Monday, April 25, 2016

followers of my faith [Mormon Monday 94]

Today is National DNA Day! I love DNA. It's so cool. And mentioning the fact in front of my entire department today made me feel...so special.

I have used this picture before. It's my favorite DNA picture.

It may have seemed like I was bringing it up out of nowhere, but my train of thought was actually pretty easy to follow! The question that prompted me gushing about DNA was, "What does complement mean?"

Complementary bases are like the coolest part about DNA. I mean, beyond everything else cool about DNA. The bases complement each other because they fit together despite being different. When the A and the T  and the G and the C are lined up right, they bring the strands together into a complete DNA...strand.

Every once in a while I go through a phase where marriage talk is everywhere, and this past week or so has been one of those times. I've been listening to Presidents Ucthdorf and Eyring's talks from this past Priesthood session. It got mentioned a couple of times at stake conference (but only as often as it probably would've gotten mentioned in a family stake). And then we had that lesson on it at work today!

Oh, and also it was my parents' 30th wedding anniversary.

One great thing about marriage is the way you complement each other. I think of my parents and other married couples I have in my life. They're not the same; in fact they're quite different people. But working together they're stronger.

Oh wait. That's a quote. Here.
We know from the scriptures that “it is not good that … man should be alone.” That is why our Heavenly Father made “an help meet for him.” The phrase help meet means “a helper suited to, worthy of, or corresponding to him.” For example, our two hands are similar to each other but not exactly the same. In fact, they are exact opposites, but they complement each other and are suited to each other. Working together, they are stronger. (x)
Naturally you might expect that all this marriage talk has been causing me to ponder what I'm looking for in a marriage partner and also what I can do to become a better marriage prospect, and you're not wrong. Those thoughts have crossed my mind.

But also, my testimony of the institution of marriage has strengthened. I know that it's ordained of God and only by entering into and faithfully keeping the covenant of celestial marriage can a man and woman fulfill their divine, eternal potential (x).

And just like DNA is ligated together and becomes the source of life, a man and a woman can be ligated by the marriage covenant to create even more abundant lives for themselves and for their children. That's great. It's a great thought to have.

Monday, March 21, 2016

followers of my faith [Mormon Monday 93]

I happen to be working on the Resurrection. Here's a nice quote from President Hinckley.

“The miracle of that resurrection morning, that first Easter Sunday, is a miracle for all mankind. It is the miracle of the power of God, whose Beloved Son gave His life to atone for the sins of all, a sacrifice of love for every son and daughter of God. In so doing He broke the seals of death. …And just as He took up His body and came forth from the tomb, even so shall all of us enjoy a reunion of body and spirit to become living souls in the day of our own resurrection.
“We rejoice, therefore, as do many, and as should all mankind, when we remember the most glorious, the most comforting, the most reassuring of all events of human history—the victory over death” (“The Victory over Death,” Ensign, Apr. 1997, 4).
I may have a little more Easter stuff to say this week. But this is a nice start!



Thursday, March 10, 2016

and the words, they're everything [wwis 13]

Boy do I have spring fever today! So here's a bunch of old status-bot tweets relating to summer. Sort of.


I'm just, I'm not sure there's a better thing than a garden tomato liberally garnished with bacon.

This sounds like my kind of picnic (especially if combined with the previous)

Sometimes leftovers don't always pan out the way you hoped.
Or this might be about a regrettable summer haircut.

Like, do people not know that they're leaving their prints for the sun to shine on? (Sunshine. Relevant.)

Mosquitos are summery. Also finding stuff is a good summer activity (wait of course! geo-caching!)

Sounds like an ideal summer activity to me.


I once took an anatomy course over the summer (this year I'm attempting accounting)


I like imagining what this qualifying sentence could have followed. "She was loved in all the eternal worlds." "Well, most of them."

Yep. When I first randomly placed all these tweets in this post I didn't know they were all going to relate to summer so well (Well. Most of them). They're also not SUPER funny, but I am sure one of the next WWIS installments will be hilarious. #staytuned

Monday, March 7, 2016

followers of my faith [Mormon Monday 92]

I  had an idea for MM but I forgot it. So have this nice quote that I just copied so it's conveniently right at my fingertips already.

“Men and women who turn their lives over to God will find out that he can make a lot more out of their lives than they can. He will deepen their joys, expand their vision, quicken their minds, strengthen their muscles, lift their spirits, multiply their blessings, increase their opportunities, comfort their souls, raise up friends, and pour out peace” (“Jesus Christ—Gifts and Expectations,” New Era, May 1975, 20).

(President Benson)

Is this becoming more of a monthly thing than a weekly thing? Okay.

Monday, February 8, 2016

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The summer I was 20 I lived with my grandparents, Mima and Granddaddy. Granddaddy passed away a few days ago and I was thinking back on my time with them -- they both showed me incredible patience. I also have one story that comes to mind...

So that summer was when Granddaddy had a car he preferred to drive around, this one:

what a GEM
It was always a thrill to go careening down neighborhood streets in that car vehicle, which had a top mph of I think 25. (One time we even drove it on Center Street (speed limit 40) which was extra exciting, but it was important that we buy that ice cream.*)

One time I asked why he preferred this car vehicle, and he responded "I want to leave my descendants an earth to live on."

I appreciated that.

[*the summer I lived with them they were very careful to always have ice cream for me to eat. I appreciated that too.]

Tuesday, February 2, 2016

The Literary Nunnery, Ep. 50: in which Leslie has an ideal Saturday





I've forgotten for a long time to post this video. It's just hard to remember! But here it is. I look really nice so this is as good a time as any to quit while I'm ahead. 50's a nice round number anyway.





  • Books featured in this video:
    Hunter by Mercedes Lackey
    Dreamer's Pool by Juliet Marillier

  • Monday, February 1, 2016

    followers of my faith [Mormon Monday 91]

    In Ezekiel 33:10-16, the Lord warns that we're not guaranteed heaven just if our righteous acts outnumber our wicked ones:
    10 Therefore, O thou son of man, speak unto the house of Israel; Thus ye speak, saying, If our transgressions and our sins be upon us, and we pine away in them, how should we then live?
    11 Say unto them, As I live, saith the Lord God, I have no pleasure in the death of the wicked; but that the wicked turn from his way and live: turn ye, turn ye from your evil ways; for why will ye die, O house of Israel?
    12 Therefore, thou son of man, say unto the children of thy people, The righteousness of the righteous shall not deliver him in the day of his transgression: as for the wickedness of the wicked, he shall not fall thereby in the day that he turneth from his wickedness; neither shall the righteous be able to live for his righteousness in the day that he sinneth.
    13 When I shall say to the righteous, that he shall surely live; if he trust to his own righteousness, and commit iniquity, all his righteousnesses shall not be remembered; but for his iniquity that he hath committed, he shall die for it.
    14 Again, when I say unto the wicked, Thou shalt surely die; if he turn from his sin, and do that which is lawful and right;
    15 If the wicked restore the pledge, give again that he had robbed, walk in the statutes of life, without committing iniquity; he shall surely live, he shall not die.
    16 None of his sins that he hath committed shall be mentioned unto him: he hath done that which is lawful and right; he shall surely live.

    In good news, if we end up righteous after having some wicked moments, that's good!



    Here's a quote by a General Authority on the matter:
    The Final Judgment is not just an evaluation of a sum total of good and evil acts—what we have done. It is an acknowledgment of the final effect of our acts and thoughts—what we have become. It is not enough for anyone just to go through the motions. The commandments, ordinances, and covenants of the gospel are not a list of deposits required to be made in some heavenly account. The gospel of Jesus Christ is a plan that shows us how to become what our Heavenly Father desires us to become” (“The Challenge to Become,” Ensign, Nov. 2000, 32).

    So...be good :)

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